“Only God could say what this new spirit gradually forming within you will be. Give Our Lord the benefit of believing that his hand is leading you, and accept the anxiety of feeling yourself in suspense and incomplete.”
When I first read this quote, I was immediately attracted to it, because it seemed so authentic based on my life experience. I know that “anxiety of feeling yourself in suspense and incomplete”, and for much of my life I have assumed that if I lived “correctly”, the anxiety would be resolved. Teilhard says no, get used to it. I suspect that you also know this feeling of anxiety. In the context of Teilhard’s vision of the continuing evolution, perhaps anxiety is simply the way it is, par for the course; I’m not doing anything wrong, except not believing that God’s hand is leading me. It is difficult for me to accept that I am being led; in a way it is similar to my difficulty with accepting the self-driving car, but I am excited about that new spirit forming within me.
How about you? Do you believe that God’s hand is leading you? Do you feel that new spirit?